Wednesday, January 27, 2010

The House Warming, and a weekend update!

Thanks to everyone who made it out to our House Warming, you all are so sweet. We had an awesome night until my dumb ass neighbors started trippin at like 9:00pm. WTF. We will get into that more later. So many things to say I haven't blogged in like 2 weeks.

So Lets start off with, I went out on Thursday night to a new Lesbo Club called Kyss to show support for my sexy DJ friend & only got like 3 hours of sleep before work the next day. However it was an awesome night, I danced & drank the night away, pimped my roomie out to lots of people on the dance floor, got to watch someone else throw up for a change.....LMAO. Like I said fantastic night, definitely worth the exhaustion at work the next day.

Then some how my lovely roomie convinced me to go out on Friday night. You might ask why, well that's because she hates to see me sitting at home alone, super sweet I know. One small problem, this now make 3 hours of sleep in like 48 hours & our house warming was the next day. I had to clean & prepare food, but hey I needed a little excitement in my life so I said what the hell. Too bad it was a straight club.... LMAO. But damm times have changed from back when I use to go to the Straight clubs. Let me elaborate on this one.

First of all I love to watch people, its one of my favorite things to do, because you never know what your gonna get. Well this night at the straight club, there was a whole lot of X-rated dancing going on. First of all there was a stripper as a go-go dancer, who was wearing a biking that was no bigger than my shoe laces. At least if she was cute, I would have been into it, but she wasn't my friends. Then all of these little girls in their tiny dresses backing it up on there guys. They needed a room for sure. I mean no joke, I saw a whole lot of ass & panties that day. We ended up getting home like at almost 4:30 am of course because we were bull-shitting & running around afterwards you know parking lot pimpin (For my roomie.....lmao).

I have to wake up Saturday, get my car back, clean the house, make the food, & do everything for the house warming which was suppose to start at 3pm. I woke up at like 10am, then I ended up waiting around to get my car until like almost 11am. Finally I get my car, run to the store to get a few last minute items & I'm back home by like 12:30. I start to clean, and I text my roomie to hurry her ass home to help me. Then I realize its about 2:30 & I haven't even showered or got any food ready. YIKES.... I think to my self don't worry people are always late. Sure enough people are not always late, I answer the door to my first guests looking a hot mess.

Then I quickly apologize to them, run upstairs to take a shower & have them just sit & wait for me. Then as I'm in the shower, everyone & their mom starts calling because they are arriving, I have my old roommate let people in (thanks babe by the way), because I am no where near ready. Long story short, at like 4pm, I was finally able to come down & prepare food. Thanks to my lovely friends the twins & my awesome co-worker who helped me prepare everything. Everyone loved the food, & enjoyed the special drinks I made, which we have officially named the Pink Pantie Droppers. (The name says it all people).

We began opening our gifts and we realized that either our friends think we are alcoholics or they are. Because we got 3 of the same 20 piece bar sets with all kinds of cups & shot glasses, you know the whole package. Things came in 3 all night, we got 3 candle sets, people ran into our chandelier 3 times as well. We keep count because its pretty funny to us, even more so when it happens to one of us....duh we live there we should know not to run into it. We got cute frames, dope ass square plates which I love, the brownie seperater thingy, and some other kitchen stuff. All in all we had a lot of laughs & great vibes until my homophobic neighbor was harassing my friends as they left.

This guy is a total douche bag, he is a grown as man yelling at my lesbian Friends the most ridiculous slanders. I wont even repeat the shit he was saying. They called the cops because we were too loud supposedly, my other neighbor called my landlord & my building management. What a night, & people it was only 9pm. WTF!!!!! My landlord was cool, he called me the next day & I explained our side of the story & at the end of the day, he was not mad. SO YAY, our House Warming was a success.

Hope you enjoyed the latest dose of Vixxx, I have lots of stuff planned this weekend, so you never know what I might be writing about next week.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Sunday Brunch with my Girls

For as long as I can remember I have been friends with the same 5 people. We always called ourselves the Sexy 6, and dam we have lived up to it. We use to tear the town apart with our good times. I have known my cousin (well obviously since I was born...lol) The Twins since kinder garden, Heather (may she rest in peace) since I was 16, and Then my other BFF since I was like 16 or 17. These girls are & will be my girls forever. They are the type of friends, you can stop talking to for 10 years, & then just pick up the phone & catch up like it was yesterday. Most girls don't have a close group of girl-friends they can count on forever, but I am lucky to say that I do. We all have our flaws, but we are riders for each other no matter what.

We have had our wild & crazy nights out on the town, to our back yard parties at my parents house, to our insane spring breaks, to our relaxing get together lunch dates, to our annual meetings at the cemetery. Your probably thinking WTF, well like I said may Heather rest in peace. We meet every year on her birthday & the anniversary of her passing at the cemetery. We hang out, talk, bullshit, laugh, cry, drink and imagine all together, as if she was still with us today. We have all kept our promise to each other & to her that we would never forget her. But that doesn't surprise me, because she is the most unforgettable person I have ever known.

As the years go on we have all gone through are changes in life, as you know these are my straight friends, so most of them are married or having babies, living the family life. I am the only JACKO... that is still out and about all the time. It comes with the territory of being gay I guess. Well not always true, when you have a solid partner, you can always settle down, & only go out on occasion. We as girlfriends try to see each other like once a month or at least every other month for Girl time, but I think its more like DRINKING time.

I love my girls we all drink up a storm & laugh our asses off when ever we get together. My favorite part of being with them, is the memories we always talk about. For an example they always want to talk about back when I was straight....lol (It's not gonna happen ladies but I cant knock them for trying). Any who we were talking about typical girlfriend Q's, who was your best kiss, best sex, that whole shabang, and its funny to hear every one's answers, I'm sure a few of mine were un-expected. I think it was hysterical this time around because we had brunch at my house & my Lovely roomie was there who knows nothing of my straight life, I kept having to say EAR MUFFS to her so she wouldn't listen to all my crazy (straight-girl) stories.

Every now & then I can get them to shake what there mamam gave them on the dance floor of club, but those days are few & far between. But guess what, I convinced them to go to a club this Friday night (Of course it has to be a straight one) but who cares, were gonna party like its 1999. (I threw that one in for my older peeps, becuase I love me some prince, but I was in 10th grade in 99.) LMAO!!! Keep reading to see if there are any wild stories in us left.

Hope you enjoyed my friendly dose of vixxx today.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

My Crazy Love Life - Part 3 (The Real Lesbian)

When I was 19 my best friend passed away from cancer, I was heart-broken an a mess. The last thing I wanted to do was party or meet new people. I had just spent the last 6 months sleeping in the hospital on two chairs put together. So as you can imagine, I was devastated. My friends wanted me to be happy, so they tried to get me to go out. But really I was a bore, Not my usual life of the party self. So I did what I usually do, I threw myself into my work.

While my friend was still around but sick, she begged me to go out & have a good time. I agreed go out this once to show her we can still have fun. I met someone that same night. But I was not interested, due to having no time in my life. After my friend passed that person popped around again. She was friends with my circle of friends. She started to call, & hang around, I wasn't looking for anything serious. I guess in December after talking for a few months, I started to see a possibility of something more. Small problem this girl was another big time player and yes people she was a dyke. So what did I do, nothing. I wouldn't even kiss her until she was done with all her other girls in her entourage, and to my surprise she got rid of them, and I guess I gave into the whole dyke thing again. Who would have thought my longest relationship would be with a dyke. I guess opposites attract...lol.

By the end of December 2002 we had made it official. It was fun to date someone who was really into me, & vice verse. We partied together with our friends but with all new loves, your most comfortable when its just the two of you. The first time we were sexually together, it was incredible the best I had ever had. Her lips were so soft and passionate. I was longing for someone to make me feel so .... orgasmic. I fell in love with the thought of being in love.

We had an amazing first 6 moths together, she helped me heal my pain of losing my best friend. She kept me happy, which was something most of the other people I dated couldn't do. We had problems over the following 6 months, our friends didn't think we should be together. Our first year was a bit of a roller coaster. We fought for our relationship, & in the process, I lost a lot of friends. I was angry with her, but it was also a very positive point in my life. I was growing up and I got my shit together.

We bought a condo, and started to build a life together that wasn't about partying, hanging out and hooking up. It was about getting ahead in life. I was 20 & she was 19at the time (yeah I'm older not a Chester though....lol). For my first birthday together she took me to Hawaii, Maui to be exact. It was blissful, the first picture we took together was at the beach during sunset. We fell in love & did everything together, she became my best friend. We knew we could make it together, she asked me to marry her and I said yes. However we agreed to wait for gays to marry legally. Its just a piece of paper anyway, & we already lived the life of a married couple.

We grew up together over the next few years, but in all relationships there are problems, and as time would go on, we would develop more and more. We sold our condo about a year later and upgraded to a house. This year we went to Cancun for my birthday, we stayed in a luxurious hotel, & had a fabulous time. However with a new house comes new bills and we had to go back to reality. We were doing renovations to our house, & living the life. However money became a constant issue, we has times of struggle & times of bliss like most relationships. When we were struggling arguments would come, when money was flowing we were fine. We made a pact to stick it out, good or bad, hard or easy. We loved each other.

The following year we went to the Bahamas for my birthday, we loved to travel it was a way for us to celebrate our hard work. Although this trip had plenty of issues. We made the best of it. When we came home we were investing in more real estate & eventually got in over our heads. The financial problems were draining us. It then started to creep into our relationship. My partner was trying to get into the police force, and she dedicated her life to that, I supported a 100%. She quit her job, & managed all of our properties full time, I stayed working to bring a constant income to the house. But soon this would be the changes that started to ruin our relationship.

We began to fight about everything over the last year of our relationship. There were bad influences & my partner was going through a change within in her self & needed to be on her own. So October of 2007, just shy of five years together, we split up. I was broken into a million pieces. I had to start all over again, I never thought we wouldn't make it. I thought we will get through this, but we never did. I had lost my best friend again, but this time it was worse, because I was in love with her. This is the second most hardest time for me. We actually stopped talking for a long time. I didn't see her for over a year. We tried to be friends, but I guess it was too painful. We are civil now though, I love her still and always will.

I was very angry & hurt for a long time. I once again put my whole self into a relationship and ended up leaving with nothing. Pain is love I heard, ain't that the truth, but to be honest I would rather have loved and lost, then to never experience that kind of love, its intense. I have never really released so much to the public before, I had a journal that I would write in to keep me sane through the last year of our relationship. I'm telling you this because the one thing that helped me get through it all was TIME. TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS. Broken limbs, cuts, scrapes, & most of all broken hearts.

It's 2 years later now and I'm finding myself all over again. I re-connected with an old friend, who has slowly helped put all my pieces back together and mend my broken heart as best as I have allowed her to. I may have been broken, with all of the hardships in my life, but I can say honestly as do my wrists, I am beautifully broken. I hoped you liked this very deep dose of vixxx. We will get to better more funny stuff in the future. Thanks for reading.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

It's 2010

Wow peeps, were in 2010, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. I was having a beautiful beginning to my new year, until some hater, decided to comment on my blog anonymously. Now I know when you blog, you can't control who loves it & who hates it. So please see my lil side note to my anonymous haters: HI HATERS.............BYE HATERS

DEAR Anonymous Hater,
I would like to thank you for reading my blog, but please remember its my blog & I can write what ever I feel. If you don't like it - don't read it. I know who you are HATER.

Sorry had to do it, now back to MY BLOG:

I finished the next part of my crazy love life saga, but I wanted to reflect on the new year first, before posting it. So I'm sure everyone has made their new years resolutions....start exercising, loose weight, fall in love, become rich, you know all that kind of stuff. Well not me, I've already done the whole lose weight one - One too many time before, & you can see from my pics....I not doing that well....lol So this year I decided to stay thick, & just watch what I eat so I don't blow up to big. I want to be..., You know the sexy type of PHAT. (Pretty Hot And Tempting)

But I'm on a different level for 2010, I have been working on getting my life back together after my really rough break-up 2 years ago (See my crazy love life part 3). So I'm going to save money this year, so I can eventually buy another house. And start over in the game of LIFE. Everyone who knows me, knows that I like to spend all that I make & take good care of my peeps (I'm not the savings type). Reason being, I work really hard all the damm time, so spending well that's how I justify it in my mind - by enjoying life.

Also this year, I plan to be more adventurous. I will be attending the wild Dinah Shores in Palm Springs in April, which is the ultimate LESBIAN girls gone wild type of party. I went 2 years ago, & had the time of my life. I plan on going to New York in the Winter. I Might even think about going to Europe in the summer (we will see about this one). Oh and I'm so going Snow boarding this year, My board looks so lonely in my room.

Well that's it for now, my crazy love life will be up tomorrow. Hope you enjoyed your first dose of Vixxx for 2010